Posted 9:44 PM by jessica

Get a Grip, Man

So it's been awhile since I've updated. Life around here is pretty much the same. Matt is still going to school five days a week, while working entirely too much. Kollin is really blossoming into a very fluent reader, and enjoying it to boot! Kaden is so verbal nowadays. He says some of the funniest phrases. The other day he put his hands on each side of my face, looked angelically into my eyes, smiled the sweetest smile, and said, "Get a grip man" . I laughed my hiney off. And sweet baby Keaton is growing up so much now. He is officially a toddler. He hasn't crawled a smidgen in more than a week. He spent the past six weeks or so trying to figure out the whole walking concept. He would start his journey walking, toddle about twelve steps, fall, and crawl the rest of the way. Now he just walks. My baby is getting big.

I spent the past month or so trying to decide what, exactly, I wanted to do here. I was so tired of wanting to blog about certain topics, but finding myself avoiding them, as not to offend anyone. Chances are, anyone who would be offended by my ramblings, is someone I know IRL. Now, mind you, I do not underestimate my ability to offend the masses, I just have a feeling that only my nearest and dearest bother to read this shit. See, right there, the word shit, that could potentially be offensive(hi Kassy), but I am over it. Pretty neat, huh?

I also noticed that I was using other people as an excuse to not blog. I am an intensely private person, and I do not like to put myself out there. Sure, many(does the two of you who read here count as many?) of you may know my opinions and thoughts on matters, but that is not me. I think it is safe to say that not a single person could answer many questions about who I am. What hurts me the most? What has been the hardest time in my life? My marriage? In regards to mothering? What motivates me? You get the idea. Well, I finally decided that I will just write for me. If someone else reads it, that is okay. If someone finds out that my favorite color is purple, I have not been compromised in any fashion. If I offend someone that I care about, I apologize. Please, talk to me about it. Y'all know how I love to play those uncomfortable games.
Sample:
Me: So what is the worst thing you have ever said about me to someone?
Friend: Umm....(uncomfortable silence)
Me: No really, I want to know, I will so not be offended.
Friend: Okay,I said you could be bitchy.
Me: Yes, I can totally see that! Good one.
No one likes to play that game with me. Especially my husband. lol The problem is that I am so hard to offend, that sometimes I don't realize, until it is too late, that I may be offending someone else. It is my goal to be more aware and tuned in to my loved ones. I'll worry about my not-so-loved-ones at a later date.

Note to Self: Please yourself first, only then can you please others in good spirits.